I Break My Heart

from Through the Darkness and the Cold by Elliot Thomas

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I once thought the world such a dark place
of inky rivers under distant start
until I sailed a vein that ran right through me
to a black and bitter heart.

And I wondered who'd deprived me of the strength and the light
and come reaching like a shadow in the night
until I found that very thief inside me
feeding like a parasite
and I commit a crime.

And I'm the one who breaks my heart
and I plunge the world into the dark
and I rob myself of wind and spark
until I see by a different light.

I don't remember that I took that poison
forgot that I had ever had the choice
but I see now that I took that cup and drank it down
a beggar for the sorrow
holding out my hand.

And sorrow has it's own peculiar beauty
a memory like a hand around a sword
hold it gently and it remains a sweet reminder
but too tight and it makes a heart grow cold
too tight and it makes a heart grow cold.

And I'm the one who breaks my heart
and I plunge the world into the dark
and I rob myself of wind and spark
until I see by a different light.

What now? Who am I that I would do this to myself?
And what's life in the light to one raised in the night?
I don't know! I don't know! I don't know!
To wear the marks and that look in the eye of strange destinations!
And what's life in the light to one raised in the night?
I don't know! I don't know! I don't know!
I don't know! I don't know! I don't know!
I don't know! I don't know! I don't know!

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from Through the Darkness and the Cold, released November 24, 2016

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